This isn't a very cheery post coming up so if you're expecting sunshine and rainbows, you should probably leave this page now.
Well, Kassel is pretty, there's lots of shops to look around and there's a Lidl around the corner so I'm pretty much sorted. Uni is across the road and I'm finally finding courses. However, this semester is probably going to be really rubbish. I can sense it.
I have no wish to travel around Germany while I'm here. The places I want to go are so far away or they cost too much to get to and I don't really fancy going by myself. Our university travel pass includes a handful of cities or towns nearby for us to go and visit and I've looked at some of them online and they look like tiny little places that most people only see when they pull in for petrol or something.
I don't really leave my flat. At all. I go across the road to uni and then I come back. I go round the corner to Lidl and I come back. I clean my flat god knows how many times a day and I'm now taking to exercising and dieting as a way of feeling some sort of control while I'm stuck out here.
I hope that my courses are a little intense, or at least that I have loads of work. There's only so many times I can clean my cooker without using it! I have 83 days to go and in my spare time, I made myself a funky little calendar to help me count down the days. I just hope I get something out of these 83 days. I hope my German will get better and that I'll actually learn something I can use later in life, even if it's only on a pub quiz or something ridiculous.
I can't believe how different these two terms are. Last term, I was surrounded by friends. So many people that I wanted to spend time with and who I loved spending time with. And here, I have a cactus called Marvin who's not very fluent in English, let alone German. I miss being surrounded by friends. They make me who I am and they bring me out of my shell, out of my comfort zone and push me to do new things and be a better person.
99 days until I shall be holidaying with the most amazing best friend a girl could ask for! That's what is getting me through. Venice 2013! This will all be a distant memory and I can really enjoy myself and be ridiculously care-free and let my hair down before going back to Cardiff and settling down. I want to sort my life out; my career and what path I'm going to take for the rest of my life. I can start looking at moving out, and somewhere I'm going to stay longer than a few months. I can start living life properly; working, earning money, starting a family, going on family holidays and getting a dog and a house with a white picket fence and all the other idyllic things I yearn for.
Only 83 days stand in my way. Let's have them, then!
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